Was his slip-up - the truth he tried to omit, albeit poorly - where this conversation started to spin out of control? He's not sure anymore. So much has happened in what feels like moments and hours all at once. And now...
Now he knows he has to say what he means, not only because all his attempts at keeping the truth to himself make his stomach curl into itself with cramps, but because the more he tries to hide, the more the Boss fears the worst.
And sure, Doppio is afraid too. Sure, he still can't believe the Boss would like to know the full, undiluted truth - even Doppio himself struggles to face it. But if he has to choose between his fear and the Boss's... That makes the decision a lot easier, doesn't it?]
Y-You mean... the world to me.
[He hesitates, still. It isn't that he fears being punished for a lie, because this isn't one - but some truths carry just as much terror with them, by their very nature.]
You're... everything. Everything I do, it's... it's for you. When we were separated-- No, when I found out what happened to you... I didn't want to exist anymore. There wasn't any point.
[It's true. It's true, and it hurts.]
But now we're both here, so... even if it's never going to be the same as before again... I know it's gonna be fine. Because... Because you're the one I live for.
it's fine!!!!!!! also suicidal ideation cw
Was his slip-up - the truth he tried to omit, albeit poorly - where this conversation started to spin out of control? He's not sure anymore. So much has happened in what feels like moments and hours all at once. And now...
Now he knows he has to say what he means, not only because all his attempts at keeping the truth to himself make his stomach curl into itself with cramps, but because the more he tries to hide, the more the Boss fears the worst.
And sure, Doppio is afraid too. Sure, he still can't believe the Boss would like to know the full, undiluted truth
- even Doppio himself struggles to face it. But if he has to choose between his fear and the Boss's... That makes the decision a lot easier, doesn't it?]Y-You mean... the world to me.
[He hesitates, still. It isn't that he fears being punished for a lie, because this isn't one - but some truths carry just as much terror with them, by their very nature.]
You're... everything. Everything I do, it's... it's for you. When we were separated-- No, when I found out what happened to you... I didn't want to exist anymore. There wasn't any point.
[It's true. It's true, and it hurts.]
But now we're both here, so... even if it's never going to be the same as before again... I know it's gonna be fine. Because... Because you're the one I live for.